What does YOUR ideal, heavenly life look like? Let’s find out…

What does YOUR ideal, heavenly life look like? Let’s find out…

Going deep yet again to help you create more confidence and clarity in your life. 

My thought today is this… How many of us KNOW what we would feel, do, be if EVERYTHING in our life and EVERYONE in our life created this “blissful ideal” we are all seeking?

I think the answer to that question is the exact clarity we all need. You see the more clarity I have about what ‘my all good, thee kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven” life I can see and accept the more real it becomes.

I complain, I seek prayer and help in area’s I still feel cheated or lack or blocked in… in this way I am human. However, as I seek I also seek clarity to be clear on WHAT it is that I am seeking. How does it feel in my body – would I know my bliss if I was in it? How does it think – where would I put my mind if I was to think of the highest places? How does it feel – emotionally and spiritual can I taste it even this heavenly place or if God came and walked beside me would I simply pass him by?

The more YOU ask your heart what does my highest life look like? The better you will recognize it and the more you naturally think on it and live into creating it.

It’s journal time…. Don’t let anyone else hold the key’s to your purpose, your bliss and your expression of happiness – this is YOUR life.


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HUGS TALK – Adverse Childhood Experiences and how our Faith helps us heal.

HUGS TALK – Adverse Childhood Experiences and how our Faith helps us heal.


This past week on HUGS I was joined by a true kindered spirit his name is Dale Fletcher he is the Founder and Executive Director of the Mind, body connection ministry.

So many of us have lived through challenging times, but not everyone knows how those time can and do effect our health, mind and body, into our futures.  Knowledge is power and on this HUGS Talk show Dale explains some of the research behind these trauma’s and their effects on our health and happiness.  Then we dive deep into how our personal relationship with God is the ultimate game changer. 

Dale has a heart for helping people live a healthy and abundant life. He enjoys applying his formal wellness education and insight from personal life experiences in his role as a ministry leader, faith and health consultant, speaker, retreat leader, and health coach.  Dale’s passion is teaching and coaching others on how to integrate a mind, body and spirit approach to healthy living from a biblical perspective.


  • Dale_FletcherFounder, Faith and Health Connection (founded in 2005)
  • Health and Wellness Director, Harris Family YMCA, Charlotte, NC
  • Director, Weight Management for Life Program, Pinnacle Health System, Harrisburg, PA
  • Health Educator & Wellness Coordinator, Pinnacle Health System, Harrisburg, PA
Dale has a love of the outdoors and enjoys running to stay in shape and manage his stress.  He reside in Charlotte, NC and he and his wife are members of Transformation Church in Fort Mill, SC.
You can reach him through - Faith and Health Connection Ministry

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HUGS Talk- Adverse Childhood Experiences and how our faith can make a difference -  

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HUGS TALK – Divine in 9 a beauty treatment for your mind.

HUGS TALK – Divine in 9 a beauty treatment for your mind.

Over the past few months we have been diving deep within my signature program Divine in 9 during our weekly HUGS.

With the switch over to www.uscradioproductions.com it has been a challenge and remains so to link the replays of our show to this page.  I know this has been a disappointment for all of you who listen after the show and have for years.  For this I am truly sorry.

However, I have come up with a solution :)

Here is a one stop HUGS blog for you to download and listen to all the shows from January to March. Some of them you can stream through blog talk during the USC transition and others you will have to download to your computer or phone etc.. and listen and own.

Feel free to download them, send your friends to download them and as always let me know what you think, what you learned about your beautiful self.  Also, feel free to schedule some time with me one on one to dive deeper learn more about the group program beginning again in the middle of May or simply have a chat.  Go ahead and schedule your time (it’s my gift to you) HERE.


HUGS Talk-Creating YOUR NEW Story -  Week 1

Week 2 on blog

Check Out Spirituality Podcasts at Blog Talk Radio with USC RADIO PRODUCTIONS CH TWO on BlogTalkRadio


HUGS Talk-You more than a body – your pure soul - Week 3


Week 4 on blog talk

Current Women Podcasts at Blog Talk Radio with USC RADIO PRODUCTIONS CH TWO on BlogTalkRadio



HUGS Talk-Getting out of the box and interview with Angel Quintana - Week 5

HUGS Talk -Laugh when you fall…the art of falling gracefully - Week 6

HUGS Talk-Standing Tall in all your AWESOME!!  Week 7






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Being a loser – I am so happy!

Being a loser – I am so happy!

I AM – What great words, powerful in there meaning and essence – I AM.  I am inspiration, hope, her to raise consciousness, love and transform as I am transformed. My intention in writing all of this is to possible inspire you to look at your life

, look at the places you might be saying “I am stuck,”  “I am lost”, I am alone.  All those places you like I was not matter how good you are, how hard you work you seem to fail again and again or walk into hurtful situations or relationships over and over again. I hope this blog give you courage to let go and let God burn these enemies to their dust. Because sometimes losing ourselves is winning.

This weekend I had a burn as many of you know and from it many new awakenings.  I know, over the years I have asked these awareness’s asked to see how the puzzles pieces of my personal life fit together. Wondered…why??? But the truth is I had forgotten what I thought of myself.  A belief that was so deep down and true that I no longer rec

ognized it – it simply was a commitment I had made to myself, never to lose again.  It was not a bad thing, simply just not true or possible.  EVERY aspect of my life has been to prove to myself and the world around me that I could have won, yet the truth of the matter God’s truth in the matter seemed to always follow me around, I lost – I was cut to the bone in pain and I didn’t know how or why. 



Before I was 11 – I won nearly everything I put my mind too.  I have always been an over achiever.  I also felt that and the time of the event that would dictate the next 27 years of my life that I could have shown them, convened them to be nice, respectful, gentle, kind.  I should been able to fight them off, my father and uncle had trained me to fight.  On a deep level I have believed that I could have won with my wit or beauty or fight the battle that changed my life.  I until now have been unable to stop the plight to prove and finally win, over and over again I have created events to prove I could have and over and over again I have been hurt, cut down, berated and left in pain. Looking back and knowing what I know of how we play a role in our own experiences, how our soul is committed to grow and how important it is to see our part in all of life, I can see how I have been recreating this event over and over again from different angles trying to win.


 The fact is no matter if I knew better or could fight, there are a few battles that cannot be won and I could not have one. By no fault of my own, sometimes we walk into other peoples battles with the demons within them and those battles are for them, not us.  I was caught in a cross fire of a group of men’s own battles and they could not see me and I could not have fought them, not even a grown man could have.  This battle was not mine and maybe your battle is not yours to win either.     

We are children of God, and we are in the hands of God.  If it is His will I will no longer fight this battle and I can already feel myself TOTALLY anew.  I have finally let go of needing to win, win them over, win the fight and/or succeed to ‘show them’ that they could not hold me down.  The fact is they could, the fact is they did, but through this I have learned that I don’t need to stand on my own, actually I simply cannot (and I have tried).  I see that God holds me up, His body and community of fabulous friends (you) hold me up and I receive that now. 

God has shown me why. And my intention in writing all of this is to possible inspire you to look at your life and those places you may be stuck failing again and again or being hurt over and over again and let go of the need to win on your own because sometimes losing is winning.

My WHY? I now see, by God’s grace alone that they are blind and nothing I could or can do can make them see the real me, Gods creation.  Much like they could not see Christ Himself those evil men and unjust women could not see.

 For me this was a losing battle, not because I am a loser, but because this battle is not mine to win.  NO matter how much I fight, prove, work, etc… It would not have changed a thing and it hasn’t no matter how I have tried.  This is not my battle to win – it is Gods’ and I may have lost to those whom don’t see and it may have taken 27 years for me to stop fighting this battle and expecting to win. 

Today however, I gladly accept defeat and walk away from this battle.  I AM a winner – I always have been and sometimes you win by losing.  Christ lost his life (in the eyes of the blind who don’t see) and gained it in the eyes of those of us who believed and we gained ours through His crucifixion.   

Maybe you can relate to feeling the frustration and confusion I felt when I could not make them see my worth, my preciousness, my femininity, my child likeness, my need for protection.  I could not fight them off, not with the knife and not with my words.  They did not understand me, nor could they, they were/are deaf.  They all saw what they saw and cut me with my own knife/words etc… they turned against me for reasons I will never know.  They did not choose me to love or see my worth or value me as a person as precious, they where blind and nothing I could have done or could do is going to change that.  I have been fighting a losing battle alone and no matter what I will never win – so I accept defeat, you all win, in this world, you can kill me here, turn my words into your knife, you have stabbed me, pushed me down, cut me to size and ripped me open.  For 27 years I have been dead in you – beating myself from within the grave.  I gladly lose this battle and I hope that you can admit defeat in your life too and be renewed in Christ.  Those who try to save their own life will lose it; those who lose their life will save it. Matthew 10:39. Those who try to gain their own life will lose it; but those who lose their life for my sake will gain it. Luke 16:25.

My prayer for us all (say it with me) – God you are my redeemer, my savior, my Father, my mate.  You are the only one with sight.  Let your will be done.  I am dead in this world.  I deny it no more.  Let me see your glory, fill me with your mercy, protect me with your holy blood.  Thank you for protecting my Spirit, your Spirit within me.  Thank you for my unending strength.  I am a winner in YOU Lord – Let all see you in me! Be it your will. 


XOXO, Antiqua – You are not alone – schedule time to ask God to deliver you from your enemies and refresh your soul anytime – the link to schedule is at the top of this page :) Talk to you soon. 

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Naked and Ashamed – my comments and inspiration from another blog and Holistic Fashionista Memiors

Naked and Ashamed – my comments and inspiration from another blog and Holistic Fashionista Memiors

I am looking for a balance, a respect and brilliance that we are living in these bodies, these temples able to create life within our very selves – without shame and without hiding for my girls. I really like this article – she goes deep and complete through the way many of us women and girls grow in our body shame and how the evangelical purity culture has impacted us. 


In response to her article and to keep diving further into this conversation which truly began for me years ago and even was published this year in Holistic Fasionista Memiors – (get your copy here).

For me growing up in the church while being abused then being safe while at bathing pools enjoying being in my natural state outside of guilt, has given me a different perspective on the body and modesty than most. That said, self respect is so beautiful and my friends who married as virgins do tend to have fabulous sex lives, over the ones that for whatever reason choose differently.

This article get’s you thinking and also really is in line with the chapter I wrote in “Holistic Fasionista Memoirs” about self worth. This stereotype and female worthiness issue goes far wider than the church and it is not only females, it is males too. Matthew 12 keeps coming to mind when I think of this male/female blame issue when it comes to the standards around sexual virtue. We are ONE Christian- BODY full of brothers and sisters not two. And after marriage we are ONE body – in marriage. And so if we are divided against each other – setting a standard for women to be a certain way because the men can’t control themselves otherwise, blaming and grumbling holding one responsible for the other – we both are responsible for ourselves and satan uses guilt and shame to divide us, amongst ourselves and sexual relations is one way he has dug in deep.

“Every kingdom divided against itself will be ruined, and every city or household divided against itself will not stand. 26 If Satan drives out Satan, he is divided against himself. How then can his kingdom stand? 27 And if I drive out demons by Beelzebul, by whom do your people drive them out? So then, they will be your judges. 28 But if it is by the Spirit of God that I drive out demons, then the kingdom of God has come upon you.

29“Or again, how can anyone enter a strong man’s house and carry off his possessions unless he first ties up the strong man? Then he can plunder his house.

30“Whoever is not with me is against me, and whoever does not gather with me scatters. 31 And so I tell you, every kind of sin and slander can be forgiven, but blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven. 32 Anyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but anyone who speaks against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven, either in this age or in the age to come.

33“Make a tree good and its fruit will be good, or make a tree bad and its fruit will be bad, for a tree is recognized by its fruit. 34 You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of. 35A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. 36 But I tell you that everyone will have to give account on the day of judgment for every empty word they have spoken. 37 For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.”

For the record I do think that life would be much easier if we all held our sexuality up as a gift. Mine was never treasured, I lost that before I ever even knew I had it. And for me as for many of the women I speak to when they “gifted” their sexuality to another it was healing because it had been stolen. And for many it is not because we wore any kind of clothing or not. This culture does not have a clothing problem (Adam and Eve were naked) this culture has a respect problem, self-control issues and all the shame and guilt only adds fuel to the fire.

I wish I had learned to LOVE my body, respect and cherish my sexual desire and understand the beauty that I have learned from hours and years reading and praying within God’s word in Song of Songs. That is what we should be teaching. When you love yourself that much, you will know when someone else is loving you that much and marriage will be and so will be a celebration between two of God’s people joined as ONE. No more guilt, no more shame, no more blame – just LOVE. When we know this, even if we are hurt we will know that even if our bodies are hurt or used, even by our very selves – the body is not to blame, in all things we can forgive and be forgiven and through Christ Jesus all is restored to good – for on the 7th day God was blessed with ALL His creation. PERIOD

This is the balance the respect and reverence I hope to share with my girls as they grow to women.


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